April 27th
A process, its huge amount of information and different kind of layers.
I remember when I was studying in Stockholm and I heard from the master creator, Chrysa Parkson, that the idea of create the master New Performative Practices came from the wish to don´t throw away all the things you collect when you are creating a piece. The one hour piece is always one small part of what we create in our process.
By reflecting about my methodology, way of working and specially in the context of this residence, I recognize two spaces and issues that dialogue and contradict themselves. One is the space of collecting material, trying different things and allow yourself to move in this different layers of creation – this blog, the workshops, the exchange via facebook, the table feedback with others, the mentoring.
The other is a real goal: a performance next month, that I have in mind, but I don´t want too much to focus on it because I am afraid in decide too early what could be decided in another point.
It´s a contradiction, between focusing and not focusing, opening and closing, have the capacity to move here and there at the same time.
Contradiction. It was the word that I finalize my mentoring session yesterday.
Contradiction of doing this project, of creating a piece about postcapitalism using this system. Contradiction that exists in putting yourself in the dance markt with this idea. Contradiction in applying for funding. Contradiction in eating supermarket food when I try to eat mostly health food. Contradiction of being part of a system you can´t go out of.
Contradiction of trying.
Contradiction is now my impulse to create material, searching for different ways of answering this provocation. Answering using images, using objects, relating with the space, creating actions.