May 1st
Collecting and analyzing what I have been doing in the last two weeks.
I realized that I am going trough a process that sometimes look like schizophrenic. Actually, schizophrenic is not the right word, but it is a process of analyzing and doing at the same time in order to turn consciously for myself how I work and develop tools I can use in any creative process.
I realized that in the first week I was strict looking for definitions and tried to make clear for myself what I am busy with when I create a work. Actually it was not about the moment I am in the studio rehearsing a work, but about how to work with an idea and transform a concept in something touchable and real for the others.
In this analysis process, I mostly looked to old experiences in order to recognize how I created my last works. But then, each work is a work, right? Would these tools be really useful in my next one, specifically the one I am starting to create now in May?
In order to answer this question, I needed to focus my research during these 3 weeks of Inkubator also in the development of the idea of post-capitalismus as motto for the development of a performance. In this way I was putting myself in the situation of creating a work and at the same time analyzing it.
As first strategy for that, is the constant dialogue between theory and practice, or the world of my mind and the world of my body. For each idea, reflection or insight I was creating a map and writing it down on the paper in the wall, creating a mural of ideas. At the same time, I was experiencing these ideas in my body.
Interesting from this process is to observe the two mind sets in each moment, the moment of improvisation and creation with the body and the moment of creation with the mind. It is two different and at the same time complementary mind settings and one needs the other. It is interesting the capacity of changing to one mind set to the other and also to let the creative and spontaneous mind setting influence the analytical one.
I realize how complex and how many layers a creative process and a project can have. The blog, the analysis, the concept, workshops, setting, rehearsals, they are all sides of a same project, layers of a creative process and complex how it has to be.
I realized that one of my current methodologies is the repetition and the non end exploration of an idea. Working with contradiction, I started to explore many different ways of dealing with the word and with the image of “contradictions of capitalism”.
But in the rehearsal I found myself dealing with the question: how to find what I am looking for, if you don´t know exactly what it is? How to be creative?
How to direct myself being a director?
Task for this week:
- systematize my system, mapping more clearly the way I am building by myself in order to find what I am looking for
- giving myself tasks that will help me to create this piece in a quickly way.